I Heard The Sound of A Broken Heart

A Sad Song

2010-11-22T16:09:00.003+08:00

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Now playing: V.O.S - 그러지 말자
via FoxyTunes

As I sit here with this song playing in the background,
I felt.. sadness overwhelming me,
As I think of what I've done over the past,
I think I might have hurt you along the way,
I'm sorry for all that I've done,
If I was the one who was all wrong,
You're the one who was right all along,
I'm admitting to my mistakes,
I might be something to you right now,
but I might not even be a mere memory to you tomorrow,
You might move forward till you won't realize,
That you have left me behind,
With nothing except memories.

Ramblings

2010-10-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just don't get it,
I really don't,
I don't know what to do,
But yet, I end up thinking about you.

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I haven't cried in awhile, months in fact,
But you made me cry,
Just by listening to you praying for me,
I cry without noticing it myself.

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I searched for you,
Though I know I wouldn't succeed,
I hoped to catch a glimpse of you,
I hoped for too much.

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I was on the ground,
Running around,
With no sense of direction,
And trying to be in motion,
Forgetting that I had to stop,
And love with what i've got.

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Just ramblings on different things. I am NOT in love, so don't take it as a wrong idea or anything okay?

Karaoke at Pavillion

2010-06-18T14:42:00.003+08:00

Just a quickie. Was at Pavillion on the 14th (Monday)

Breakfast for Suke Mune. Chee Yan staring at hers and decided to buy herself one..

No comment. But she looks kinda cute :)

Was at redbox for the first time with Suke Mune, Chee Yan, Elaine and Jenny
No pics were allowed.. AS you can see from this pic here.. they were aiming for my camera..That's Chee Yan btw..

A surprise BBQ birthday party for Jenny at Jie Yi's

2010-06-17T12:45:00.001+08:00

Boy, that was a long title..lol. So, it was on the 7th of June [Actually her bday's on the 6th] , Elaine and her sister, Emily picked me and Suke Mune up from my home and headed to Pistachios. We picked this Black-forest cake and then went to Jieyi's. When we arrived, Jenny saw me with that large plastic bag but she had no idea it was for her, lol.

Her bday cake~
Getting the candles out..
Jenny wishing? Emily by her side
Cutting the cake.. Suke standing on the far left, Emily in the middle and one very determined Jenny trying to cut the cake.

Group picture before Chee Yan headed home
I got cream on Jenny's face.. then, michelle followed. Now she's looking happy!
Just eating?
The half eaten cake~
Jia Bao's finally here!~
Trying to convinve Jieyi to take pictures with us.. She's hiding
That's me..and Jieyi dragging me around..
Until I'm on the floor and..
Jenny coming in to get her pay back.. Cream on my face .. I looked ridiculous but happy enough
Jieyi gave it a go!
Yuen San, me , Jieyi and Michelle
With her dog, Lucky
and Sushi..

Did I mention that i made both of the dogs fought..Sushi doesn't seem to like my attention given to Lucky.. Sorry .So we had a good time, barbecuing at the yard, corn, chicken , satay, sausages, etc. etc. Had fun at the swings.. The two dogs. Her wide screen tv and friends there.

Lastly, Happy Belated Jenny and I love you!

Colours of 1Malaysia

2010-06-08T12:52:00.005+08:00

So, the blog's back to public again after i tried hard to change my blogskin which had gave me such a freaking headache!

I'm happy cause we're finally having a break!~ Wee~~
there's just really a lot of things to update you guys on, but the lack of updates from me on this blog is just..hehe

so first up, CITRAWARNA, Colours of 1Malaysia. We had been practicing for almost 2 months and it was tiring but we had some great laughs. Especially during dikir barat and our messed-up finale dance during rehearsals. The fact that the boys from next door are dancing with us kinda scared us abit when we were told, wasn't actually that bad after all, we had funny outbursts and jokes sometimes.

The big day finally came on 22nd May. We were all ready in costumes and were at Dataran Merdeka by 4? Getting ready in school with makeup and fake eyelashes were a pain. I can't stand the fake eyelashes though the teacher kept on saying to me that mine was pretty.. -.-'' Er anyway, we ate and didn't have anything else to do for the event started at almost 8,30 pm.

I walked with Dhuha and ended up being photographed ! i cracked up when the cameraman snapped a picture. he laughed along.. i pretty much thought i look ridiculous , and had no idea why he would want. No, why they would want pictures of us. Oh well..

A couple of pics taken in the evening:

Me, Dhuha and Michelle
[L-R] Me, Dhuha, Michelle, Kassandra, Elaine and bottom Yuen San
Jenny's adorable no?
Chee Yan and Jia Bao
Wei Yen with the cool fever, lol, li hui, chean ni, bao and seow cheensara and lychee!!! tze yee~

Waiting for the event to start.. that's only half of our school with the boys..
We performed on the streets and had to parade as far as 3km with stops so we've to perform again to the public. Dikir Barat was fun, it made it to the Malaysia Book of Records for being the most number of participants in performing the dikir barat, if i'm not mistaken. Anyway, i got home at about 1 something.. took a whole hour to get off the makeup as it was too thick and slept at 2am.

An update, finally!

2010-03-05T22:42:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!
it's been what? 2 months since i updated my blog?
I'm sorry. I just feel.. really.. i dunno how to explain..not very much 'Heizen' lately..
I've been running on 'auto' mood recently..
Form 4 isn't really a good year, maybe i'm still not used to it yet, i dunno..but it's already March.. Hmm.. i dunno.. i sound so lost !!!

Okay, basically.. i should be continuing on my homework right now.
I promised myself to try to finish up the homework today and study for the test !!!
Will upload the pic soon, Michelle.. maybe tomorrow, if i can ..

Sam, blue dudes and avatar

2010-01-03T00:01:00.006+08:00

Hey guys ! I've watched Avatar !! totally awesome ! Go sam ! lol, as you can see, i still like sam worthington, as an actor i mean. i told you he's gonna be big in tinseltown, didn't i!!

The main actors on a french mag. Yes those 2 blue people look like this in real life.. ^^

I watched it in 3d..so expensive :( but dad paid my ticket for me so i don't need to spend much!

Sam Worthington , dude, I am looking forward to this next film :

Today's the last day of holidays...
NO!!!! i don't wanna go back to school, i don't wanna grow up, lol.. more like i just don't wanna take on more responsibilities. Well, just wish you guys a great and happy year with success along with it, yeah? God bless :)

Sleepover at Rox's

2009-12-21T13:34:00.005+08:00

Sleepover at Rox's with Rose and I. For 2 nights and 2 days,we talked, played, watched and loads of other stuffs. Rox was the photographer!

At Pavillion:

This would have been a great pic..Barbies

The next day, don't ask .. the pics are not pretty as we've watched 4 movies [Love Happens, 500 Days of Summer, The Proposal and The Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2] the day before and slept at almost 3 a.m. So pretty much look like hell :(

That's it. And we got to know the news about the PMR results on the last day of the sleepover, so depressing! lols.. at least, we did enjoy ourselves. I'm hoping to spend time with you guys again, keeping my fingers crossed..

Happy Bday my Junsu!

2009-12-14T21:19:00.005+08:00

Happy 24th, Junsu [the soccer freak/the dolphin/the duck-butt/the famous S-line] Technically, he's 23 but in Korea , they usually add another year so that's the way it is.

And his fanclub held this every year , Xiahday. His parents attended this event.

It's his big bday cake from the fans..Those miniature dolls are him since his debut days until now. And his fanclub doesn't send him expensive gifts much but instead donate money to good causes.They helped 2 deaf girls get their hearing back and there's even a village named after him in Cambodia where they helped them with donations. They're so nice, aren't they? From Korea to Cambodia!

His twin bro, Junho on the left and on the right, Junsu. He's adorable and chubby, isn't it?

Rock on, dude .. and work hard on the Mozart musical !
Happiness+Love+Success to the dolphin boy!

Happy 24th Junho & Junsu

Elaine's place

2009-12-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday we were at Elaine's. Me and Chee Yan took the LRT from Wangsa Maju to Melati and Jie Yi was already waiting for us. Off to Cheras ~ Left home at 8 and only reached at Elaine's an hour later ! Took some candids, will upload later..

Her mum was basically stuffing us for lunch with bacon, ham, sausages, bread with butter, salad, and mushroom soup . We were kinda amazed that we didn't put on weight with just this one meal. lols ! Later her mum dropped us at KL Central, then we headed to KLCC. Ended up with me and Chee Yan only since Elaine had tuition and Jie Yi headed home.

This part you have to read ! :

So, we lined up for the tickets. Movie was Ninja Assassin , yes, Bi Rain ! XP Anyway, that dude said that the showtime was 2.20, and basically it already 2.30 or so.. Usual thing when people are late : Run ! That's what we did..only in a much slower pace, didn't want others around to think we're loosing it, don't we? Only when we went in, we found out there was someone in our place , and we just sat at the empty places..

I keep on going, "Eh, why does it look like the ending?!"
Chee Yan said,"Maybe it's the flashback.."
Then I went," Doesn't look like it though.. I thought start off with him being trained as a kid?"
*Silence... *

The movie ended about 20 minutes later.. Hah! We chased one of the employees there and asked..

He went,"You came in early that's why.."
*Mouth hanged open*
"You can come back in again with the ticket"
*Mouth closed*

Yes, we were early.. an hour early. The show was at 3.30! Overall, I think Ninja Assassin is a good movie but the storyline is short and not much of Rain speaking.. And I seriously kept thinking, he needs to get a haircut which thank god he did after the movie had completed.. and there were bloody scenes.. Chee Yan looked at me loads of times during the movie and stared at me cause I had such an emotionless and blank face, or so they said.

The person behind me was like, "His abs!!! Wow" and "Ahh!" here and there..
No worries, I'm still sticking with Xiah Junsu. I fell in love with his voice anyway, so no, am not switching to Rain anytime soon though I knew about Rain in 05 or 06? Don't remember..but came to know him from Tv then much later Roxanne went to like him, hehe..

Another thing : MBLAQ's Joon is the teenage Raizo the one who kissed the girl.

And Yoon Sungwoong the mini Jaejoong is the younger Raizo.. yes, it's jenny's jaejoong ..

Back then.
This little kid has grown a lot.. I like little Inhwan more than the other mini kids, sorry. [CY and Jenny will know what I'm saying here]

Signing off now,
-zen-

Mini Reunion

2009-11-28T19:13:00.007+08:00

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Now playing: Jang Ri In ft. Xiah Junsu - Timeless (Acoustic Ver.)
via FoxyTunes

Lols, this song is playing in a good timing. Miss this two singers together..
"we both agree, this is timeless love"
Hmm..sounds good..
Theme for today then? for friends then?

"We Both Agree, This is Timeless Love"

So, today we had a little reunion with primary friends at Wangsa Walk. Talk about school, friends and well, basically life.

Roxanne, Lale and me.

At Popeye's for lunch :)Syakirah, Thylaga, Lale and NivaMe and Roxanne
Aisyah and I
Farah, Aishah and me

Us Again..

After Food? Diana, Syakirah, me and Roxanne
Me and Thylaga
Roxanne and Farah
With LaleMe and Niva
Group pic without Niva :( as she's the one who took this

Getting more pics soon.. So signing off now

-Zen

A Trip to the Morgue

2009-11-09T17:02:00.000+08:00

Hello people :)

So, today we went to the morgue ! Actually, we went to the forensics department at the General Hospital-which we walked there- i didn't sign on for that but last minute the teachers were like pulling us in, so what the heck? just go and anyway jenny and chee yan were asked to go to.

Left about 9 ? walked and crossed the bridge, (Elaine basically walked, NO ran across) she's afraid of heights, i am too but i'm not as bad as her, lols. Then across the football field and walk and walk till we reach the forensics department. I didn't mind the walking bit but it sure was hot! sunny~

We waited quite awhile before heading into the 'Forensics Meeting Room' or so it says on the door of the room.. Viewed a presentation of cases which definitely includes pictures of victims and well.. badly form of corpses.. How can human beings be so cruel to one another? Some pics were really em, bad? if you get what i mean.. One of the staff, i only know his name: Mr. Abu Bakar, gave brief explanation on it. Basically, from what i watch from CSI was all there.. hehe

There were pics of their attire and utensils but somehow, i felt CSI one's better.. sorry, hehe. Everything from the US seems high tech and modern and smart, but *applause* for Malaysian forensics on working on so much cases with so little staff. Viewed the live video of them doing the postmortem.

Moving on, a trip to the morgue.. Yes, we were given a little tour and found ourselves i the morgue. We were VERY UNLUCKY today cause they were fixing it. My God, it smells.. i don't need to tell you where is it from now, do I?

When we reached the school, we ate.. Then, Chee Yan was like, I'm so full.. We ended up eating anyway..then, suddenly dhuha said, "I feel like vomiting.." after that, Jenny , Chee Yan and Dhuha all said the same thing! lol.. but they didn't so i'm save :D

How could you be certain, if what you see is real?

2009-11-07T13:53:00.004+08:00

Look at this face,
Look at me,
What do you see?
Pain, is it?
From what you left behind,
How could you be certain,
If what you see is real?
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I am fine, really.. this was written quite a while ago, so it doesn't quite reflect what i feel now, lols. Actually, i don't even feel like this .. am i even making any sense? does this make sense to you? I seem confuse, don't i ?

Anyway, i changed the blogskin. what do you think? i still prefer the old one, much more cheerier? haha, this will stay for now, until i find a better one.. A week more till school ends! School's gonna be off earlier, it seems :)

Another outing with Rox

2009-10-24T20:34:00.009+08:00

Pandorum .. One word : Scary

I basically didn't want to look at the screen at some parts.. Chee Yan, thank god you weren't there, you would have squirm in your seat! and it's much more scarier than Surrogates-the bloody scenes, remember?

Anyway, today i went to Times Square, again.. yes, i know.. I had to help Chee Yan return the earring.. so, i left home after my dentist appointment to Roxanne's house.. It's been 10 freaking months without seeing her.. 10.. torture~ kidding, but i do miss her!

We watched Pandorum first.. after that, we had lunch in sushi king.. Then, we shopped! Pics:

haha..my fringe looks so wavy!
Like this the best!

Back to Roxanne's:
Haha,, this is nice..

Kinda like this..
That's it for today. Like most of the pics taken earlier..

Kids love me~~

2009-10-16T21:12:00.001+08:00

So today, we went to Times Square!!! Chee Yan, me , Jenny and her sis.. Anyway, when me and Chee yan was in the monorail heading there, there's this little blonde kid who kept staring at me,lols.. so cute and adorable..

We watched Surrogates, since the others were 18+.. Chee yan wanted to watch g-force but they wasn't showing it at the teathers anymore.. poor her..

We went to Dong Bang shop.. and god, we practically became kinda 'fanatic' ? XP talked to the auntie there.. spend quite some time there..
Then, we searched for beanie but they both ended up buying caps? lols.. Jenny had to go home by 3 so ended up me and chee yan.. we were basically trying on clothes here and there.. Before we head home we bought:

-Zen-
*A black vest
*A gray/black scarf
*A pair of Junsu's earring !!!!!

Mine's the one on the left..I wanted the one on the right actually..but no stock..
Then, i saw these:

But both oso no stock..

They have a few other earrings i wanted but i decided to buy one first..see if my ears were sensitive..

-Chee Yan-
*A brown vest
*A cap
*A pair of Jaejoong's earrings!

Hers is the the last one.. I wanted that too.. basically we ended up saying we'll exchange it if one of us needs it.. haha..

GUESS WHO WE SAW?

Then, on the way back home.. on the monorail again, there's this girl who got on at the sungai wang stop.. then i just stared at her.. why does she look familiar? yeh yee is it? then later, i asked chee yan.. she said, the girl looks like her too.. end up we got off at the same stop at bt. nanas.. then we quickly chased her.. going down the stairs, i said , "yeh yee?" but she didn't ans.. Then chee yan , called her hp but she didnt answer either.. End up with me shouting a bit, "Yeh yee?"
it was her. XP

It;s over.. Wee~

2009-10-13T13:10:00.007+08:00

PMR. It's finally over!!!!!

I'm so freaking happy ~ whee..

La la la la ..

Yes it's official, i've gone crazy.

And I'm loving every second of it :P

Lols, and Junsu's the one being thrown in the air..not me XP

-btw happy b'day roxanne-

2009-09-22T16:53:00.002+08:00

Holidays..

Well , here's my schedule so far:

Fri and Sat:
Pretty much nothing..Just read science, do some bm , maths and geog exe..tv, etc..

Sun:
Went back to grandmas' place... Cousin came over then ended up going to her house and trying over dresses.. lols.. which to my amazement, it fits nicely and looks nice on me.. AND NO PICS.. haha

Mon:

Went to the Curve.. Shopped abit.. I bought a white tank top from PADINI Concept Store.. this next thing is going to sound idiotic.. but while we were looking for food (lunch), i saw Cold Storage having a promotion for Japanese food , and my mum said we could take a look.. And.. erm, i thought of Pinky Candies? Lols.. Yes, the DBSK Pinky Candies:

I searched for it.. But don't have.. I know it's kinda stupid but..aigo i just wanted to look, okay? seems they're nice? from what i read, anyway.. Later, i walked past The Rock Corner and stared at the TV while walking that is..I realized it was Leehom!! lols.. then, without thinking i went straight in, and just look at the albums on display.. I saw the Deluxe Edition of his Musicman DVD!!!!

ah~ my dad then stood beside me..i was like, ohh...can i have it ? can i have it ? in my head.. then i walked out of the shop.. my dad was beside me and i started hitting him..sorry, never see this side before didn't you?

-Direct translation from cantonese-
i hit him on his arm saying , "leehom ah.. *sigh* wang li hong ah... *weird noise and hit dad again* "
then he said, what is it with him?
then i go, "just now in the shop! his LIVE DVD...*blabbers*"
he continued, "After PMR i buy for you la.. aiyo.."
then i stared at him, "*sad face* but.. after no more adi? it's the limited edition wan!"
he went "*thinking face* em, i'll get it for you now then..but you have to promise me not to watch it until AFTER PMR.."
and of course i said yes!!!!

WHEE~~ hahahhaahahaah..i'm so freaking happy!!! then when he paid for it, i went over to the other table and saw DBSK's MIROTIC Concert CD...i basically went, "Junsu!!!" in my head, that is.. it cost about 50 if i'm not mistaken.. but i let it go.. my dad was waiting for me anyway..

Later we went, to KLCC for bout 2 hours, my mum wanted to get some things in Isetan so i went to the super market in Isetan.. I looked for the Pinky candies again..i never did such an idiotic thing before..But Isetan has japanese items everytime right? don't have them too.. so, i went and walked by myself outside Isetan.. I saw the Rock Corner, so i went in and they didn't have the leehom's deluxe DVD but they have the normal one.. soooo.. my heart was jumping for joy that my dad bought itt for me earlier.. and i saw DBSK again.. the same wan.. XP

Preeeeeeeettyyyyyyy idiotic don't you think? lols.. anyway, my bday's in 6 days.. can't believe time flies by so fast..PMR will be here soon, so if i didn't update this blog means, my hardworking-ness kicks out my laziness attitude in studying..

So, just wishing you guys Good Luck and Hope We'll ALL get STRAIGHT A'S for PMR, yeah? Gambatheh!

2009-09-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

hey guys! i've been searching for this necklace a long time.. so i need help! if you see any necklace or chain that looks like this just let me know! or you could get it for me as my bday gift.. that would be great! then again, i can just wish on it can't I?

this is a rushed post so just click on the pic to enlarge it and just use your keyboard to zoom in it if it's to small.. thanks

2009-09-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

Mum says this hairstyle suits me better.. this was taken in july before i had my recent haircut..ah, i haven't take any pics in a long time..lols

2009-08-29T16:36:00.003+08:00

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Now playing: Colbie Caillat feat. Jason Reeves - Droplets
via FoxyTunes

"And my head is in a cloud of rain,
and the world seems so far away,
and I'm just waiting to fall in droplets,
to droplets,

So you left a mark,
I'll wear it proudly on my chest,
above my heart,
to remind me that i feel the best when i'm with you,
and everything is everlast you know it's true,
my eyes are painted with regret and i don't need it.."
-currently liking this song a lot-

So, holidays weren't the best..cause i never stepped out of this place except to go to tuition-which is everyday and i spend half of my day there- and basically spend my holidays in the tuition centre.. and holidays are coming to an end!! i'm not looking forward to school at all.. this week wasn't really a happy week.. i dunno.. seems dull? plain? i dunno.. i dunno.. i seem lost? so many 'dunnos'

ah..this..is..so..random! i was bored and ended up scribbling the cross first.. then it turned out like this..

aigo.. don't know why but i kinda have no mood to blog lately? so ending this post right now..

2009-08-17T16:45:00.003+08:00

yay!!

exam's finally over.. get to relax my mind and you have no idea how many pimples have been popping out of my face!! please no more.. i don't feel pretty :( lols..

Anyway, tomorrow our very own ANGKASAWAN Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor will be coming to our school.. seems like it's going to be a whole day? Aigo..i don't mind sitting for a couple of hours but the whole day? are you nuts?! oh well~ can't do anything bout it..

and one thing , i would like to mention...

JUNSU!!! what have you done to me? aigo.. i didn't write anything since that day..my book is lying there helplessly waiting for the blank pages to be written on it!!
but the best thing from this is, i manage to write the last one that i really like on the way to school at the last day of July when it rained extremely heavy .. and i thought of you.. singing Rainy Night actually.. haizz, heizen, heizen.. you probably thought of his voice cause that was the last video you watched of him before you fell asleep!!!!!

2009-07-31T20:04:00.007+08:00

*EDITED
I'm here to post about.. well, my last post did mention about Xiah..XP.. So right now, we're gonna talk about or maybe more of me posting about Dong Bang Shin Ki(DBSK)/Dong Bang Shin Gi(DBSG)/Tohoshinki/Tong Vfang Xien Qi(TVXQ)/東方神起...that's about it, right? i think..lols, there's just so many but yet it refers to one band.. different country, different name.
oh, with the rubik cube madness going around, there's even pics of them with it..

So here they are:

Best Friends !

So these are some pics from their recent photoshoot not too long ago:

Hero Jaejoong
Xiah JunsuMicky YoochunU-Know YunhoMax Changmin

Why I Like Them: They can sing and dance(very hard to do when you're performing..have control your breathing and vocals), compose and write songs.. they are even starting to go into acting, which is great.. Oh and they are polite too, they always bow lols..very respecful.. XP not to mention , they're pretty adorable and funny especially Junsu..He's so silly and hilarious..

2009-07-23T13:09:00.002+08:00

Monday- Woke up to Xiah's cute laughter..and having that same image replaying itself in my head..First thought in the morning-wow-

Tuesday- Woke up to DBSK's Lovin' You and found out that i was awake much earlier than my dad..

Wednesday-Woke up to Always be my baby;david cook and feeling uncomfortable but just brushed it off and headed to school..only to find out later that i was indeed suffering! hands were as cold as ice and i am not exaggerating! Some of my dear friends supplied me with heat for a while..XP My temperature was 37.5 Celcius when i checked at home after school.. Elaine was the only one who checked up on me at night, lols..

Thurs-Woke up and dragged myself to the bathroom to look at the mirror.. I looked like hell.. My eyes were red and there were dark circles.. I was extremely pale..I definitely pass a lifeless vampire.. Needless to say, I was still burning.. but not as high as yesterday..Thank God.. Have the flu right now and tomorrow we're having History Exam.. Oh GOD..hope my brain's still functioning..

More to be said later..or soon.. i'm itching to post some stuff

2009-07-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

When loneliness keeps you going,
There's a less bit of hope, and faith,
Let alone a miracle,
But I, I believe that it will leave you alone one day,
Someday you'll get it off your feet,
And find whatever it is you've been missing out,
Just need you to believe..that,
There'll be someone who loves you out there,,
Might take a little time,

But you got to believe.

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History's repeating over and over again,
Thought I'd know by now,
Inside I'm feeling dejavu,
You'd thought I'd know by now,
Can't you see,
I've been fighting the tears all this time?
So tell me that you know how i feel,
This thing has been pulling by the chest,
And it took it's toll on me,
It took some time to heal,
To figure out you'd be.. different,
Now's the time to say goodbye.

-Heizen-

2009-07-04T16:47:00.004+08:00

Panda said it's been really long since i update this blog.. so here i am with this post.. .
Anyway, school has been well, as usual.. work work work books books books study study study exam exam exam!

oh, btw thanks for the support guys! been feeling pretty down that week.. BUT something did cheer me up!

Last friday, when i was chatting with jenny at about 1.30 like that my mum suddenly yelled from upstairs..

"Heizen!! You got letter!! Get it from the table!" And i was like,"huh? oh.. why do i have a letter? lols.."

Then, i opened the thing.. and i started to laugh.. i kept on laughing and laughing like some mad woman who just earned her freedom.. my bro just stared at me.. It was so ridiculous and funny and happy at the same time.. Just pure luck-that's what i thought!

Can you believe it? I got a RM50 voucher to Amuleto! Anyone ate there before? Cause i would really like to know what taste good there as i've never even lay a foot in that place..

This is so cool! I main hentam write the thing also got 'the letter of the fortnight' and the voucher lols. Hmm, i'll be waiting to catch a glimpse of it in the coming issue of Galaxie..hehe :) Maybe i could use it to treat my mum since her b'day last week..and we didn't celebrate hers last week so probably a good idea to use this for her b'day..

Moving on..after two days passed adi, that sunday, i walked home from tuition! My first time..my dad reminded me actually..i kinda forgot cause usually he picks me up; i dont need to walk.. End up i walk with my primary school friends, -now tuition friends- we talked alot bout school and friends and other stuff till 7-eleven then i walked home by myself.. all the way from pizza hut to my house took less than 10 mins.

Last thing i wanna say is that :

Hell yeah, i'm 110% sure that you're an a******. You get what i mean now?

2009-06-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

Stupid..Stupid..Ssstupid..sttuupid..sttuppppi..pid..s..s.tu..pid..STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That was all i could bloody think of.. oh, trust me i could think of loads of other words, but no..i had to be that little 15 yr old who gives a shit on what other people feel if i speak my crappy mind!!!! no one cares, no one ever does.. even as i lie on the bed with my entire little family there.. they don't even bother or noticed that i was crying..hell, yeah i was.. i've not even shed a single tear since a very long time this year.. great isn't it? i've been trying to be the most perfect little thing for a month now and what? i am trapped in this house huh? what the hell have i been doing so far huh? nothing, is that it? no one even gives a damn that i've been lying there on that stupid bed in a stupid room with three people who thinks they know who i am ..i don't even know myself, and i more than enough don't let you into my mind and i don't open up my thoughts to anyone.. i keep things to myself, that's what at least keeps me freaking sane.. my eyes are puffy and swolen.. they are blood shot red and thanks to what? thanks to what?!?!? huh? tell me, i really wanna hear you say it.. and the best part is? mum said you having a flu? don't get H1N1! and i snapped saying , better la.. might as well just die.. no point..
and that still neither of them know that i was crying my eyes off..

Mind my cursing and cussing.. at least i'm still not off to the f-words and beyond

2009-06-09T10:14:00.015+08:00

Hello... So i've watched Terminator Salvation the other day with my bro and dad.. it was a good movie, and watching Christian Bale shift from his character 'Batman' to John Connor; he did a good job as the adult John.. If you watched the previous Terminator films, you'll get me.

So, meet Marcus Wright..

Yeap, Christian Bale there..and i forgot the lady's name...

Look at his arm..He looks really fit here!

The lady on the right's real name's Moon Bloodgood.. Kinda..weird? and i notice he likes to fold his arms a lot..

It seems Marcus Wright isn't really a human.. Half man, half machine

Now push Marcus Wright from Terminator Salvation aside.. This is Sam Worthington, yes he's the same guy

Dude, i love your aussie accent! He somehow reminds of Hugh Jackman when he says certain words XP from the E! BTS interview with the cast.. And you can be sure he's acting skills in this film is as good as Christian..He managed to -overcome/hide?- his accent really good, though there are 2 or 3 times you can hear him speaking exactly like an aussie dude..

Well, this aussie guy is definitely here to stay.. Tinseltown here he comes!

Before my haircut..[I know not a very nice pic but just look at the hair okay?]

After haircut..wait till school reopens la! Hair's how do you say? em..thinner? lols.. but it's shoulder length.. Sigining off now!

2009-06-02T14:39:00.004+08:00

Right, i noticed i am beginning to like writing.. But it does get in the way.. which totally sucks!
pfft.. i need balance though! anyway, the cow book i'm writing in is turning into.. how do you say 'ham choi' in english? haizz, at least a certain someone's getting me a new one.. kidding really.. it's up to you.. XP

2009-05-30T20:24:00.003+08:00

Watch this!! KRIS ALLEN AND ADAM LAMBERT FANS!! VERY CLOSE.."BROMANCE" don't you think?

2009-05-29T18:02:00.005+08:00

BIRTHDAYS THIS MONTH!!!!

Friends first, alright?

May 17- Sue Mayne..the one on the corner left..Looking really happy!
May 21- Minyi

June 6- Happy Advanced! no recent pics of her! will try to get a recent pic if i can..

See? Xiao Wang , Xiao Li, Xiao Hong, and Wang Leehom!!! it's the band from Gai Bian Zhi Ji mv
May 17-Leehom!! Never imagined him cooking..lols

When Mark was a kid.. i LOVE his eyes!! he's so cute
Teenager..17, i think? Still got the blue eyes!
May 28- Mark !!! Eyes look different here but trust me, he's eyes are still beautiful in other pics!

oh,well..Wishing you guys a happy year..Stay happy, cool, and beautiful !! oh, wishing you the best in everything you do!

2009-05-24T09:32:00.001+08:00

Multiplatinum-selling, Grammy Award-winning singer Carrie Underwood has a topped a new Forbes Magazine listing of the year’s highest-earning former American Idol contestants for this year. Coming in second was Jennifer Hudson a contestant on the third season of American Idol. Rounding out the top 5 are Kelly Clarkson, Jordin Sparks, and Kellie Pickler. Check out the list below for the list of 2009 Forbes’ Top 10 American Idol Earners

2009 Forbes’ Top 10 American Idol Earners:

1. Carrie Underwood - $14 million
2. Jennifer Hudson - $5 million
3. Kelly Clarkson – $4.2 million
4. Jordin Sparks - $3.1 million
5. Kellie Pickler - $2.3 million
6. Clay Aiken - $2.2 million
7. Chris Daughtry - $2 million
8. David Cook - $2 million
9. David Archuleta - $1.3 million
10. Taylor Hicks - $300,000

2009-05-22T13:45:00.003+08:00

Hey guys..just a quick post!! I finally got my internet back!! woo~ since last thursday i can't use, something wrong adi..

so the new and official poster of the twilight saga: new moon is here!! the first one was Twilight, now we have the second one!! Note: Jacob's hair.. much much more short now!!

Next, we have Jordin Sparks on her new music video Battlefield out soon..

Back to American Idol!
These pics are taken during their rehearsal for the finale yday..Michael played photographer!Scott,Matt, Danny, Anoop, Alexis and MeganThe girls dancing and having some fun..Allison, Alexis and Lil Rounds?Anoop..XPMatt..hahahahha, so adorable..he's kinda funny..i like his voice, a lot.. and anoop's taking a pic..Danny with his laptop, Lil rounds [sleeping?] and megan..
Alexis..with her pink highlights gone!
Matt going crazy a bit..

FINALE
-On The Red Carpet

David Cook

David Archuleta.. He looks so.. thin..Stress on the road?

Carrie Underwood. Look at her right knee.. Pink plaster!

The Black Eyed Peas

Jason Castro..why didn't he bring his bro along?

Janice Dickinson..and LAPD..

Jason Mraz..I like how he match his clothes in this pic! look at his feet..XP

-Let the finale begin!

Adam and Kris in white.. The David's [David Cook and Archuleta] wore white too last year, remember? It's a trend now, kah?

Top 13 singing So What-P!nk

Kris and Keith Urban performed Kiss A Girl

Not forgetting, Adam Lambert with KISS.. did you see their shoes? man..

Santana and Top 13.. All are in black and red!

David Cook sang Permanent..it was a song that reminded him of his bro who just passed away from fighting cancer.

Megan and Michael with Steve Martin [yes, the pink panther dude]

Queen and the top 2 singing, we are the champions!

Allison and cyndi..forgot her last name, but i think it's lauper..singing time after time
Alexis,Jason and Anoop-I'm Yours

Adam and Kris..Adam looking happy for kris and kris looking..shocked..

Kris still looking stunned backstage..

He's going to Disney World!! yep, you're american idol 2009 winner Kris Allen is going to Disney

2009-05-21T17:45:00.002+08:00

It's 3.30++..and it's thurs.. The day the winner of american idol is announced, at least not till 6 o'clock..but i heard the radio just now and it says:

KRIS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!

THE GUITAR DUDE!!!

THE UNDERDOG!!

YAY! SO HAPPY FOR HIM!!!

that's it..i want to continue reading my history now..bye bye!

2009-05-12T18:11:00.011+08:00

My previous post (Thursday on 3oth April), that writing/song/whatever you want to call it..actually came out of nowhere..no idea where in the world it came from in my head..

But this time what i'm bout to taip out is really real and i know where all of this is coming from..and i manage to taip out a lot in minutes without stopping myself on my mobile.. And i won't be surprise if there aren't any comments in my cbox on this.

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There's always only one,
yeah,only one,
Till the end of the day,
And you can't believe that you're left behind,
It wasn't fair,
It wan't fair enough you thought.
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I've been trying to end this song for some time now,
i can't seem to think,
When all i hear is the words that you said,
It keeps ringing in my head,
What am i to do?
When i can only start with once upon a time?
No happy ending,
No ever ever after,
When all we did want was that,
Why did you have to say it out loud,
Why cant you just keep it to yourself?
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I am tired of people talking bout me,
Criticising everything i do,
The closest one, Didn't defend me,
Yet the farthest ones seem to know me better than
any of you ever will,
Why did you break my trust?
Why did you have to say things out?
Keep it to yourself,
I dont wanna hear them,
Friends seem to hurt us the most,
Nothing's going to be okay,ever again,
Did you think i was going to to be alright?
Trusting you next to mewill be hard,
Don't waste your time,
Cause i am sure i don't need your
Sympathy
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And don't you stare at me,
with that look in your eyes,
I won't be falling for that trap,
I don't wanna start a fight,
So please don't pretend that you don't know
What i'm talking about,
Cause honestly i really think you do.
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I never saw it coming, and i should've,
When all the signs you're giving out,
You're waiting for things to change,
You're waiting for night to replace the day,
When things become too much caues you're alone,
And you go," there's nothing i can do about it",
but things aren't as smooth as you thought it would be,
I did rather get hurt by someone else.

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But you did pull others in,
Do you like the feeling of making others feel down,
So you could feel special..
And it feels like you're trying,
Trying to hard, to be accepted yourself,
And don't think i cant look through you,
Just because you think you're invicible.
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So they're all short..i don't care, to tell you the truth , i might take some time to complete it..but you know what? this might be the most writing i've done in a couple of minutes..just a couple of minutes apart..i'm freaking happy..the only thing i worry is that..i need to be brave and stand up fot myself..My brain actually works and i do know how to stand up for myself but i always put them first reather than myself..others feeling ahead of mine.

gees..i'm the girl-next-door? i'm too nice? i'm too naive? i don't know how to describe myself..i seriously have no idea..

-I warned you adi..Don't ask me about this..i don't want you ppl to ask me what's wrong with me-

2009-05-04T17:44:00.004+08:00

In the bus, on the way to the Muzium Negara.. Just a random shot actually lols..We did took some pics on the way there but it's not in my camera right now..when i get them, i'll post them up..

Our first tour guide!! lols..she's marie, and she's french..cool eh? she told us about the malay architecture of the houses and stuff.. There were about 5 more ladies..but only a couple of them told us their name, the one i remember clearly is carrie and susan..Xp

Anyway went back to school bout.. 1++Began to take more pics:

me and yuen san
yan ling and me
Yan Ling and me
Me and michelle
Me,michelle,Yeh yee and heng huei
Vivien, Chee Hoong and me
Vivien,me and Michelle
Lols.. Dhuha's expression? haha
Me..Yeah,yeah i cropped it..XP

Me and juee
me and min yi

Chee hoong and me

Elena and i

Michelle and i
Elaine and i

Me and suke mune
Ju Ee, me , vivien and min yi
me and min yi

I didn't quite take pics from my camera that day cause i had no idea wtc happened to my camera..suddenly went cuckoo a bit.. oh well, Michelle,Vivien and Elaine ..Hurry up , i want those pics! lols..

2009-04-30T16:57:00.002+08:00

Today was pretty boring, in the beginning of the day, we had double periods of art and moral, but both of the teachers did came in to teach..So we were just lying around, talking, singing, debating, playing badminton with books[lols not me..yan ling,goh goh , they all] some were even sleeping!! [a certain girl who's last name's hew] XP

anyway, i was pretty bored..i end up writing again.. so i'm gonna share..

Sitting here with the radio on,
Not even caring what's even on,
Mind's drifting somewhere else
It's pretty hard to think,
When all that's left is the thunder.

Cause we're looking back,
Thinking that we're all that we had,
Nothing's gonna change,
Nothing's gonna change,
But everything wasn't the same,

I went to the place back we used to go,
Looking up, I count the stars,
Waiting for an endless night to end,
I swear, I'd fall asleep,
Thinking bout just you and me..

Cause we're looking back,
Thinking that we're all that we ever had,
Nothing's gonna change,
Nothing's gonna change,
But everything sure isn't the same,

You'd deny and i did feel unwanted,
When all that's left are the broken pieces,
We could have fixed it,
but we did let it all slip away,
We could have watch it spark,
We could have done loads of things,

But we're looking back,
Thinking that we're all that we ever had,
Nothing's gonna change,
Nothing's gonna change,
But everything did.

So what do you think? it kinda looks like a song..maybe i should write more, i could be a songwriter, lols..

Later, there was the retirement ceremony for Pn Mary.. She's moving to Australia!! with her husband..She's actually pretty nice..but strict..It was kinda sad , the funniest part was when the ex-form 6 guys performed with 3 indian girls from our school..It was hilarious, they were dancing and being spontaneous as it was last minute..lols..moving on, we saw one of the upper 6 indian guy going teary..gees..he was the only one from the form 6 guys who cried!

Tomorrow going to Klang! It's been a long time since we went back.. hmm, can't wait to see my cousins! Kristal and KKK..

La dee da~ i've also finished my folio geog!! After 3 hand-ins and much much editing and fixing, i'm done~~ woohoo!!

2009-04-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

Amanda Bynes- 3/4

Leona Lewis - 3/4

Jesse McCartney - 7/4

oh well~
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY!

And here comes, the month of May~

2009-04-26T17:11:00.004+08:00

Leehom!!

I so so so so so so so so so want to go this 2nd of May!!!! anyone care to give me free tickets? haiz...5th might start our mid-term..MIGHT.. i dunnola, just confuse with the time table..

oh man, the next time he comes will probably be what? 2 more years from now? and i'll be older..and he'll be older! nevertheless, still like his music!!

On wed, while i was tying my hair up, as usual like every other morning..mum was in the room and the radio was switched on..Leehom's Xin Tiao was on..and after that, the dj gave out the info of the concert..

Mum: Leehom wor..May 2nd
Me: Yeah, i know..
Mum: 8 pm wor
Me: (Nodding) mmm..
Mum: Bukit Jalil or..
Me: mmm..
Mum: He coming oh..He very leng-zhai leh? last time more leng-zhai..
Me: yes, mum..he very talented lor.. I want to go..
Dad:(just entered the room) go where?
Mum: her wang leehom la..
Dad: oh..
Me: so expensive..and oso no one go with me wan la~
Dad: i go with you la! (walks out of the room)
Me:(in my head) what?! woah..

haizz..wish him all the best this concert, and know that i'll support you! keep on making great music and movies!! em, god bless you.. [as though he's reading this~]

haizz..(how many times have i sighed and said haizz?!?!) tomorrow's monday..let the week of torture begin!

-Heizen-

P.S. What do you think of my writing on my previous post? the one with the pic of the eye? do let me know.. ppl say i sound emo..XP

2009-04-25T11:26:00.003+08:00

I kinda think it's funny..To tell you the truth, i think it's hilarious, actually..
I don't feel hurt at all,

So good luck in making me crumple to the ground, yeah?

2009-04-24T22:02:00.003+08:00

Hello people of the world!

I'm currently reading Twilight..Finally~At chapter 4 only! and it's 2202 now..pretty late, still using the comp, hhahaha!!anyway, today miss vivien came here to finish up her geog folio. then, she kept on asking me to go to Jusco..I was like,"er..no thanks..after susahkan your mum...Don't want la.."

So, end up her mum the one ask me..aiyaiyai..so i went with them..and guess who we saw? olivia and her sis..and yes, they don't look alike.. erm, kinda bored now..tomorrow, got classes to attend to! tuition~

Intervensi's over in practically 2 days..Study like hell~ Yay for my maths and geog..very satisfied..Hating on my history~adi got 1 B.. haizz..anway, i seem to be obssesed with this:

LOLLIPOPS!!!! and adorable kids of course~

2009-04-12T17:44:00.005+08:00

Written by Heizen

I've been chasing silly dreams,
Every lost one, pushed them aside,
And every other has yet to come true,
Yet to know what i'm made of,
I need to know what i'm made of,
Finding a way is just so hard sometimes,

Standing under a cold hard rain,
Felt all the pain i've gone through,
Tears are flowing down my cheeks,
Kept thinking this isn't it,
Shaking and trembling,
Then I think why am i the only one against the entire world
Every step that I take,
Should always be me and not someone who i wanted to be,
I'm so lost, i'm so lost right now,

Each road isn't always a joyful ride,
And when it comes to an end,
I'll know how far I've actually come,
And realize everything has it's reasons,
I fall, cos it's all a person can take,
Pick myself off the ground,
That's all that matters,
That's all that really matters..

2009-04-05T18:17:00.003+08:00

You find your faith has been lost and shaken,
You take back what's been taken,
Get on your knees,and get down deep,
You can do it, if you think it's impossible
Keep on believing,don't give in,
It will come and make you whole again,
It always will ,it always does
Love is unstoppable..

2009-03-24T20:10:00.005+08:00

"OH..MY...GOD..."

Was all she could think of..When he told her that she could if she want to.. After a few blinks(eye), "Wait..You're serious right?"she thought..

She had asked him to help her to find out if there was anything wrong with her computer speaker.. She clicked 'shuffle songs' in her player..The first song that blasted out really softly was "心中的日月-Lee Hom".She skipped the song as it was soft..The following song was "Crush-David Archuleta"..

She told him that David Archuleta is coming to KL soon..Lee hom too..then she *sighed* saying it was no use..no money...:( And if they were performing in KL, the tickets even if it's the most expensive, you can never even catch a glimpse of him unless it's Genting, of course..

He knew she liked his songs(david's) and Lee Hom too.. He said,"If you want to, you can,you know.."

I was stunned..BUT i know, i could never go to their concert..PMR's this year and i would love to see them LIVE..
They're really good performers,they can sing live,play the piano, guitar, etc..and they don't need to lip-sync to impress the crowd of their vocals!!

First time..i felt over the moon!! My dad said if i want to, i can, you know!!!! it's nice to know that my dad actually lets me to go to live concerts..i guess, everything have to wait until after PMR..

P.S. Look at previous posts on concerts on 27 Feb to know what i'm actually talking about..

Posted on 24th of March at 20:28

2009-03-24T16:55:00.003+08:00

SPORTS DAY

I've been wanting to post this since Sunday and it's Tuesday already..Anyway,David Archuleta is coming to Malaysia on 9th of April!!!! He looks cute,doesn't he? Like i said, i want more money!! I want to go to Lee Hom's..and David's right now..:'(

Moving on...

Today we had our Sports Day and we won!!! We won!!! Hahaaaahaha.. We won 1st place for Pergerakan Berirama, Senamrobik and we're the best,lols..Well, we won 1st, followed by Laksamana, then Syahbandar and Temenggung..

It rain heavily for like an hour today..Most of us stood when we were at the Cheras Football Stadium cos the seats weren't clean..covered with bird shit..Ewww... We waited till the rain eventually slowed down a little and they started the Sports Day..

Pom poms+water=Disaster!!

My school shoes and socks are now pink and black in colour..There's black and red splats on my arm..My red t-shirt has black spots and my face has a little red and black here and there..Because of the pom poms and rain..did i mention,our pants were wet too?

I manage to get the colours off my body when i get home..I'm not so sure of the shoes and socks though..Hmm,i should put bleach..XP

Woohoo~~~ We won, lols.. We work our butt off for irama!!! We got those track ones too.. Didn't do too bad cos Laksamana has more runners than we do actually..

Anyway, congrats to each and everyone of you guys..congrats to Bendahara,Laksamana,Syahbandar and Temenggung!!!

Posted on 24th of March at 16:55

2009-03-21T17:56:00.006+08:00

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Now playing: Brian McFadden - Like Only a Woman Can
via FoxyTunes

My braces are killing me..They are hurting me..I need to the rubber band off, right now!! But then, it won't help to straighten my teeth.. :'(

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Now playing: Matt Giraud - So Small [Studio Version]
via FoxyTunes

I am so not looking forward to school..I don't want this holiday to ever end..This is the only holiday where we don't need to worry about PMR..YET..

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Now playing: Nickelback - I'd Come For You
via FoxyTunes

I'm currently browsing through my iTunes Store and i noticed that iTunes had countdown album releases by releasing singles a couple of weeks before the whole album is in stores.. So far, they had Taylor Swift(last year), Rascal Flatts (yay!) and Keith Urban..and there were more but i din't take notice..Lols..

Posted on 21st March at 18:52

2009-03-20T14:06:00.002+08:00

Mama said, " Home Is Where the Heart Is,"

Heizen

2009-03-17T15:28:00.004+08:00

Yeap...Her head is cut off,lol..nah, she insists on me not to take her face..So, yes, it's yan ling.. and that's the tee i paid..

Kinda bright right, the colours, i mean..well, that's cause her clothes are usually plain colours..Got her something different..lol..

Ju Ee's..

This is the watch that we gave to her..

So to those of you who shared the gift with me, this is it ..

^.^/m/

2009-03-17T13:08:00.005+08:00

Jenny,Dhuha, Yan Ling and I went to the National Library today..

Dhuha smsed me in the morning at about 7++..You know what she asked me??

"What are you wearing later?"

Lols.. Anyway, i was awake so i replied her.. Later,Yan Ling came..Then we went to the library about 10+..Waited for Jenny but still missing so went into the Lib at about 10.30..Jenny came a bit later on..

Guess who we met there?

*Madhuri
*Inthu Mathi
*Katherine..[Did i even get her name right?] i don't think you guys know her..from CBN and tuition centre..

Anyway,tomorrow going to KLCC with mum..Dunno if Yan Ling going or not..If she's going, at least we can walk together or catch a movie..lol..oh, well..

Posted on March 17 at 13:39

2009-03-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

I was on youtube just now, cause I was bored to death searching for my kerja kursus stuff.. And well, i search on jesse mccartney and found him favourite-ing :

Taylor Swift's performance of Leavin'

WOOHOO!!! Yay..lols..dunno what i'm so happy for but i'm glad..coz well, i love both of them..and taylor did a good job!! the crowd sang with her too!! go check it out!!

Just search jesse mccartney then go to his official channel..under favourites..

Jesse is all grown-up now, ain't he? He's with Ludacris here..and he's new music video "How Do You Sleep? " also features him..If you notice, there's a pic of Katy Perry..That's because Katy had asked him to be in her video,"Hot N Cold" but he wasn't around so he asked Katy to be in his video but she wasn't around at that time either..

I simply love How Do You Sleep with and without the rap part..The original song is without Ludacris..It still is a good song, to me, anyway..LOLS

Posted on March 16 at 21:49

2009-03-15T21:25:00.003+08:00

To all the Christians and believers out there..I think this is a pretty nice and a good message too.."I want more of Jesus" I really think that when someone is committed to God, he will always have the will to go through everything in life..and always be thankful to Him for everything that he has..Be thankful that he sacrifices a lot for all man..

This is so cute!! Lol.. Meet domo-kun!! He's mine!!! not anyone else's!!

Posted on March 15 at 21:37

2009-03-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

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Now playing: Rascal Flatts - Here Comes Goodbye
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This song is such a sad song..I love Rascal Flatts!! lol, they appeared on Ellen's recently..Lead singer was really cute when he showed off his jeans with Ellen's face on it..Haha..I think the guy's old enough to be my dad..Nevertheless, i just love their songs!

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Now playing: Brian McFadden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here
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Moving on- I am currently angry at my ear because of my piercing..The hole seems to be smaller..I took of my earring to clean it and well, i think i'm not going to put it back on..It's really hard to fit it in..Almost cry in frustration!! Nah, i won't cry jst because of a stupid piercing..It might close soon..So, i don't care anymore..My ear seems to heal so fast..Lol..

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Now playing: The Script - Breakeven
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Nothing else to blog about..See you when i see you!

Posted on March 14 at 20:43

2009-03-13T15:43:00.004+08:00

And i'm jumping off the edge of my seat!!!
yay!!! it's the school holidays!!

Current mood:happy but tired
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Now playing: Rascal Flatts - Here Comes Goodbye
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So, we're on holiday!! A week is definitely not enough but i am happy to actually have a short break..Still got a lot of hwork to reach out!! haizz~

Anyway, Sports Day is after the holidays on Tuesday..i don't think we'll be given a day off,lol.. Currently in Pergerakan Berirama [most of us are in that/softball] , i think i'm doing okay..minor mistakes, thank God..trying to remember the new steps today..hopefully won't forget after a 9 days of no practise!!

Hmm..I'm currently downloading the tour i wanted so much..

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Now playing: Jennifer Hudson - If This Isn't Love
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Posted on March 13 at 15:43

2009-03-08T20:04:00.002+08:00

Birthdays this month:

*Yan Ling - 7th March
*Lale - 17th March
*Ju Ee - 18th March
*Suke Mune - 23rd March

First of all, Happy advance to all except Yan ling, lol..Happy Belated b'day..
Wishing you guys a happy year and straight A's this year, yeah? Hopefully, all your wishes will come true and get loads of b'day gifts!

Posted on 8th of March at 20:11

2009-03-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

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Now playing: Norwegian Recycling - How Six Songs Collide
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What good's a photograph if you're not in the other half?
Why even dream when I'm not dreaming of you?

Posted on March 8 at 7 :51

2009-02-28T20:32:00.003+08:00

I cannot be perfect,
and i will never be perfect,
if you can't accept the fact that i am different just like each and everyone out there,
different from others,
then you might as well keep it to yourself,

Every little crack,
Every chip,
Every dent,
Every little mistake,
My imperfections are what they are,
I guess one of us must deal with it,

i do not want to know how you feel about me or others,
I don't like the fact that you're judging others,
when you can not even love yourself,
your fault now is that you're searching for others mistakes,
you're pointing them out,
not caring how it feels,
what about you, then?
are you any different?
when will you realize that as people,
we're all equal?

Posted on 28/02/09 at 20:50

2009-02-27T16:43:00.008+08:00

UPCOMING CONCERTS in MALAYSIA!!! WOOHOO!!!

Lol,like i get to go anyway..i want to but..haizz..anyway, who's coming here:

Jason Mraz!!! 4th of March.. i really like this pic , oh and he's on the front cover of Star Two today.. Who could ever forget the songs:

~Coz you and i both loved, what you and i spoke of and others only read of, others only dream of the love..

~ Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing,we're just one big family..

Look at the mics!!! My god, there's a whole lot of reporters!!

Lee-Hom-2nd May at the Bukit Jalil Outdoor Stadium..Look at his scruffy hair, lol.. Some of his his songs from the album Heart Beat are pretty nice..

I wish I have all the money in the world to go to concerts!!! They are freaking expensive and with the recession going on?! Haizz..no money ah..

Posted on 27/02/09 at 16:43

2009-02-27T14:20:00.006+08:00

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Now playing: 林俊傑 - 期待你的愛 (featuring 金莎)
via FoxyTunes

Sometimes, life is really twisted. Don't you agree?

My intervensi marks for now:

BM-70
Science-85
Geog-82
Sej-82
Maths-91
KH-87

BM marks so horrible man!!! Kh, bern got 97..97..she's brilliant! Anyway, monthly test next month, and i really need to study! well, i'm a lazy bum so hopefully i'll pick up my book and read.

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Now playing: Kelly Clarkson - Don't Let Me Stop You
via FoxyTunes

Cute artwork,eh? oh, i've got Kelly Clarkson's new alubm..a couple of her songs are nice..

I'll continue later..Got to do something first..Talking on the phone with cousin sis..LOL

Posted on 27/02/09 at 14:20

American Idol- Group 1 and Rihanna's Injuries (PIC)

2009-02-20T20:51:00.005+08:00

My favourite american idol from Group 1 will be

Daniel 'Danny' Gokey. He sang Hero by Mariah Carey

Michael Sarver.He sang I Don't Want to Be by Gavin Degraw

Brent Keith wasn't that bad either.He sang Hicktown by Jason Aldean

Ann Marie Boskovich..She sang A Natural Woman by Aretha Franklin..

Mind you,the girls weren't doing that great yesterday.It was just Okay..

I can't believe Stevie Wright sang You belong with Me by Taylor Swift..She totally ruined the song!! i thought she could do better..oh, well..

Only 2 of my favourite made it through..and they're both guys! Danny and Michael and a blonde chick with pink highlights! Where's the girls?? We did have to wait for more girls and guys! Vote America!!

If you want to see Rihanna's pic of the assault by Chris Brown.(Be warned,it's not a pretty sight. I saw the pic earlier today..I took time to post cos i was busy doing my Maths hwork..)
Click here

You thought so-i did too..

2009-02-17T20:16:00.008+08:00

Sometimes, i wish i did just fly away..and not just look up at the skies just to think of something else..

If I could lie down on my rooftop and look at the stars wouldn't it be nice? I could gaze at the stars and not think of anything else..Not worry bout stuffs and all that is happening now..Life might pass me by, but i don't want to be the one who's not looking at the rear view mirror..

Oooo yay!!

2009-02-17T17:14:00.002+08:00

Ok, first up..

HAPPY BELATED VALENTINE DAY!!!!!!!!

Yeah, i know i'm late..oh,well.. hee hee..hope you guys had a good time..

Intervensi's over!!! oooo yay!! note: a 15/16 yr old boy actually answered this^^

Jogathon is this Sat..NO!!!!!!!! I am in need of donation, anyone care to donate some cash to the school?? Remember to give me the cash!!! It's a kutipan derma thing so help me!!

Oh, and i DONT want to run...help!!

Run baby run, don't ever look back, they'll tear us apart, if you give them a chance..

AND now i'm currently drawing my art..you really want to know where i get the idea??this might look cheezy so be prepared!!

MIND YOU, i didn't draw these people..i just drew the balcony,railing,shed people and drew billboards..LOL..yea, crazy right? well, i don't care..

anyway, got to get back to my drawing..bye for now

Gong Hei Fatt Choi!!!!!

2009-01-23T17:59:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! Gong Hei Fatt Choy!!

Wishing you guys a really really happy CNY with loads of ang pau!!! and i hope you will enjoy spending time with cousins and friends.. If got open house or anything, remember to invite me lol!!

Celebrate while you can, guys! Diagnostic coming soon and loads of homework this week..I know.. :'(

First week of school..

2009-01-09T19:06:00.002+08:00

First of school and 2009 is so..UNEXPECTED..that's the only word to describe it!!

Throughout this whole week in school, i realize that the teachers and Datin are expecting a lot from us..They want us to break the record for the PMR students..29 students got straight A's for PMR last year.. and my class,3 Maju has 40 students in it..They want 4o of us to get straight A's.. They call it"program top 40" or the top 40 programme..great, they just named us..

Will be taking diagnostic in about a week's time.Form 1 and Form 2 syllabus, i'll be dead..i'm sure of it..should have studied more..man..

We've finally got Interact Club in my school..I was happy when they announced it coz i remembered last year, they asked for suggestion and i wrote interact club, lol..BUT then, they had to ruined it!!!!! Form 5 and 6 ONLY..

We just got jab..two days ago..It didn't hurt..but the next day, it hurts a little when you raise up your left hand..mine didn't hurt as much as my other friends though..weird..but good!

Hmm, what else?? oh..i saw a few SKMC girls and teacher Lili's daughter! evelyn's there also..not sure if clarissa's there though, didn't see her..

New Year Resolutions

2008-12-29T20:04:00.002+08:00

My New Year Resolutions for the year 2009 are..

*Not hunch that much! Fix my posture..
*Smile more! even it means, look at my braces kinda way!
*Keep stress to the minimum level!
*Study hard and smart!
*Get more A's in exams
*Proove to 'some people' I'm not that 'stupid'
*Beat him[will tell you this later..soon]

signing off now,
HEIZEN

More celeb pics!

2008-12-29T07:13:00.001+08:00

Continuing from the last post..forgot that i left some out! well 2 ppl actually!

and here's ...

Leighton Meester

The wall looks so..cute! and artsy!

This pic doesn't quite look like her..She looks sweet though.

and
now
Taylor Momsen!

Looking chic !

oh..crap, need to run now..bye!

2008-12-27T15:49:00.002+08:00

JoJo with straight hair..

JoJo with blonde hair
Brunette JoJo

I like her too. 3 hairstyles 2 diff colour,still she works it well!

Just another pic of Colbie Caillat and Taylor Swift

Demi Lovato:

Demi and BFF Selena Gomez

Ashley Tisdale:

Right,so i'm done with the girls next up are the guys!

Celeb's pics!

2008-12-24T17:48:00.003+08:00

First up..

Taylor Swift..looking casual for this photoshoot..promoting Jeans.

Love this pic.

Not sure bout the dress, but looks like one of the episodes on gossip girl type of dress She's country.She's pop.What do you get? Good pop country songs! and a good role model for teens.

Okay i'm not finished but mum asked me to switch it off.The comp i mean. oh, well.Bye then.Will continue as soon as i can.

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T12:30:00.004+08:00

Cute xmas dog in a basket, eh?

Currently reading this book:

I would really love to watch this movie..another Christmas dog!

ok, anyway, today's christmas eve! can you believe it? so fast..2008's gonna end soon.. oh, man..time flies so fast..just wanna blog bout christmassy stuff..hmm, after this i'll just go check other ppl's blog to see what they want..

All I Want for Christmas are..

Bangles
-I like simple ones..Don't really like too shiny ones..

Clothes
-yes, i really need clothes..would like to spice up my wardrobe..you know, what i mean

Accessories
-Need to get them coz i need to jazz up my tees, jeans..etc.. like belts, necklaces, chain etc..

Books
-Being a book-worm, i would really like these books;

Amy's Honeymoon by Julia Llewellyn
If I Were You by Julia Llewellyn
The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella

Can't really think of other stuff right now..oh, well..

Merry Xmas and a Happy New Year

Rewind back..

2008-12-17T12:51:00.003+08:00

I've been listening to old songs lately..Well not old as in 60's, 70's la..Just a couple of years back..Like 2000 and in between till like 2006 or so.. you know, rewind some of the songs i used to sing along to and everything..yeah, it was nice, so now i'm listening to them more..

Among them:

Avril Lavigne-I'm with you,complicated,my happy ending,sk8er boy,nobody's home
Backstreet Boys-The One, Shape of my Heart, I Still...
Blake Lewis-Break Anotha,How many words,here's my hello
Blue-U make me wanna,guilty,best in me,breathe easy,if you come back
Brian Littrell-Wish, welcome home(you)
Brian McFadden-Real to me
Chris Brown-Say goodbye
Daniel Powter-Bad day
Duncan James-Amazed,letter to God,frequency,sooner or later
Howie Day-Collide, she says
Jesse McCartney-Take your sweet time,come to me,we can go anywhere,just go
JoJo-coming for you,let it rain,too little too late,leave,baby it's you

..Jonas brothers,jordan cahill,justin timberlake,kelly clarkson,leann rimes, lee ryan,lifehouse,mario vazquez,marion raven,maroon 5,mary j. blige, matt nathanson,michelle branch,natasha bedingfield,nick carter,plain white t's,rascal flatts,rihanna,ryan cabrera,shayne ward,simple plan,stacie orrico,taylor swift,teddy geiger,usher,westlife,yellowcard and many more which i'm lazy to taip.. I only started listening to Chinese song in 2007..so yeah.. old songs i have are mostly english..haha..

Some of the lyrics are really 'romantic' if a guy were to serenade you with his guitar or something,lols, others meant a lot like lessons's of life, some were like bubble gum pop, some were just written from the heart, which is pretty cool..

Oh, i've pierced my ears..It's been about 10 days now..

No idea why my face looks pink..A closer look..

okay, posting pics of my ear is weird..i'm not gonna do that again, i think.

2008-12-15T17:21:00.001+08:00

I was really mad and angry the other day..I still am..It keeps on rewinding in my head.. because of that person..that person said things that i couldn't believe my ears..You are suppose to understand me not judge me on what i did and said ..I'm growing up so is the rest of us.There will be changes, i'm 14 like any other teen.. We are all growing up, can't you see that? Would rather see me behaving a bit crazy, angry,happy and all other emotions a person could feel or you would rather see me be someone else who rebels and changed so much that you can't recognize?

You were suppose to understand and help me through, sometimes i just don't know who you are. I don't understand why you disagree with me.I'm not saying i'm always right, i never felt that i am always right, i make mistakes too..But i don't get you..It's like i'm always wrong, whatever i say whatever i do..Well, i'm sorry if you think i'm not perfect..You made me feel angry of myself as though i don't belong..

Whatever you say might cause me to have a breakdown, and sometimes, there's no turning back..You can't always fix things that are broken.. To heal someone takes time and patience.If you can't do it and accept that i'm just like everyone else who have problems, who's growing up, who's changing, who's struggling with friends and family, school and life lessons.. you can just not talk to me, and i'll find a way to move on with my life.

Sleepover at Roxie's!

2008-12-01T15:49:00.010+08:00

hey.. i slept over at roxanne's place on sat.. so here are the pics, we didn't take much, coz didn't have the time..and well she's afraid of her parents looking at us camwhoring..would be weird..lols...

Day 1
That's roxanne's phone by the way..

Her phone and watch
Koala
Barbie dolls..which she doesn't play with..neither do i

Teddy bear and Baby Shrek..

Before leaving to Times Square

Left's me...Right's Roxy

Nails

Multi colour nails..it's my nails..and roxanne painted them..haha..no worries i took it off after she took the pic..

Roxanne doing her nails..

Roxanne's
Joanne's..she did her toe nails too..but her toe nail's painted black with white polka dots

Joanne and Roxanne's nail polish...They have a lot..unlike me..hahah

Joanne learning how to play some songs..She just started to learn how to play it..

Few shots before we sleep..i was really tired..

Day 2

the sleepover have to be cut short..coz of my braces..i had my appointment with the dentist in the morning on sat..after that, i went to her house..i was practically in pain when we went to Times Square..God...it hurts more when i eat and i swear, i could tell that her mum was like, "what is wrong with her?" woke up at 3 in the morning..hurting like HELL..woke up at 8.30..and roxanne was still sleeping..when home the following day..suppose to go back to the dentist today but he's off..i feel like killing him..

anyway, continue...

Galaxie..went through them and took some from her..helping her recycling...JK

tell you what...the top one is roxanne and the one he's drawing is me..that's what he told me..cute aren't they..two brothers..Jayden [top] and Bryan[bottom]Her nails and keyboard..they match dont they? she freaked her mum and aunt..with the colour

Julian engrossed in his XBox

He's playing too
So is he..but he's playing with the comp

Took a walk..

God, i look tired..thanks to the dentist.. Note to self: never go to a sleepover when the day itself, you have an appointment with the dentist..you never know what he does with your braces..

Aiyaiyai..

2008-11-26T11:20:00.002+08:00

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Now playing: 林俊傑 - 我還想她
via FoxyTunes

Hey again..the news just came y'day..Rose ain't going!!! NO!!!! haizz, a short visit oso can't...Never mind la..at least me and Roxanne get to buy her b'day present without her knowing what it is!!!!so hush hush..

Hmm..i wanted to watch Twilight like i told Jenny last week.. So, hopefully if there's still tickets we get to watch it!! Me and Roxanne, i mean.. I am really looking forward to the sleepover but i'm kinda afraid too..Coz well, i will be the only one staying over there..No Rose :'( haiyo, Rose is one busy busy busy young lady!!

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Now playing: 颜莞倩 - 好不好
via FoxyTunes

That's all i wanted to blog about actually..Will be posting pics and keep you updated through the holidays..So yeah..

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Now playing: Shontelle - T-Shirt
via FoxyTunes

God, i am bored...oh well..

Hyped up!

2008-11-23T12:29:00.004+08:00

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Now playing: David Cook - Lie
via FoxyTunes

Hey, it's been a long time since i update my bloggie.. yeah, well, nothing interesting to fill you in during the holidays..i've received phone calls and sms-es from friends..just checking up on each other and all.. right, so anyway, i'm pretty bored right now..like always..haha.. i don't think i'm going anywhere this holidays..no vacationing this year! which is good, actually...need to save money..a lot of money..this year's coming to an end..not end as in death but you know.. next year's coming..2009..so fast..

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Now playing: Jesse McCartney - Bleeding Love
via FoxyTunes

well, i've found a new application, which is FoxyTunes.. it's great, i get to control my music player without having to open it.. ie, skip, forward, volume etc..now, it even adds the song i'm playing in blogger..cool.. His version of Bleeding Love is more R & B than Leona Lewis..He wrote this song with Ryan Tedder from OneRepublic..I still like Jesse after all this years..His voice is good..Haha..ok, back to earth//

well, i'll be sleepingover at roxanne's house this sat..she kinda came out this idea of hers during my birthday..haha..and me & rose were like, yeah..that would be nice..so hopefully, rose will get to go..i hardly see them..a few times a year only..so, yay! i'm getting really excited over this.. My first sleepover at my friend's house..Roxanne slept over at my place twice, and Rose once..

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Now playing: Taylor Swift - Hey Stephen
via FoxyTunes

em, i have no idea what else to write.. i guess, i'm gonna sign off now.. Bye guys!

My Pics

2008-11-14T17:23:00.001+08:00

Pics are rather polka doted with green/ purple dots...coz, it was pretty dark and i brighten the pic..I uploaded a few pics of myself..lols..well, i chatted with jenny today..and she asked me why didn't i upload the pic..she thought i was uploading this pic but i wasn't..i was uploading y'day's pic..haha..

i don't get it..they thought i hv a bf..my god..2 of them..jenny and ain/apple..seriously,i am still single and i have never dated guys before so..i am boyfriendless..Ain said it was just a random thought..and jenny was well, coz i look like i hv one..and i was like, what?! oh my god...and she was going on and on..and i kept on saying oi! she even imagined..i can't..

HSM 3..FINALLY!!!

2008-11-14T14:01:00.018+08:00

'Riiiiiinnnnnnnnnggggg!!!" Alarm clock rang at 6 a.m. in the morn..Michelle's gonna be here in about an hour, so..get your butt up to the bathroom...that's exactly what i did.. we talked,read Galaxie,gossiped on celebs,sang [lols], camwhored a bit..and laugh..and yawn..while waiting..

HOME
Galaxie magazines..and Michelle checking out my iPod..[it's for UPSR and i'm not rich]
Me and Michelle..i was still in my house clothes..

KLCC

We walked around abit..michelle and i were hungry coz well, we ate early in the morn and elena's family minus her dad came to pick us up at about em..11..so 4 hours passed, and of course, stomach's making noise..lols..

empty?

anyway, we walked a bit..went to Nike,Billabong,O Reef, Quiksilver, Roxy and Video Ezy..helped Vivien to check out something at Video Ezy..Moving on, then we were walking around..found a place to take pics..

H & M
Elena with specs...

Without specsE & M

Video Ezy

Checking out cd's

Food Court

That;s M's head..lols..anyway, i bought food from that place..
While E & M bought their's from here..

Mine..Choc ice-cream, and apple cinnamon waffles..My 1st!

Michelle's
Elena's
Our drinks..Mine is the white one..
Elena found 2 strands of hair and a plastic in her food..man, how unlucky and unhygienic..she stopped eating and didn't finish her food after she found 3 things in it..

Kinokuniya

Outside..looking down..

Cinema

Didn't take pics in the cinema..what to take? takkan want to take the seats or something? anyway, watched HSM3.. it was kinda funny what happened there..

Toilet

Lols..toilet..2 pics only..but kinda blur..but still it looks nice..haha..didn't want to stay that long there..ppl might think we're mad..

Then, we walk around..

weird..notice that E wasn't there? she didn't want to sit on Garfield..lols

Now, she's here..

Then, we saw some colourful lines upstairs...

IN THE CAR

OUTSIDE MY HOME

INSIDE MY HOME

Camwhore coz we were bored..

More pics to be uploaded soon..[Lols] E & I brought our cams so we hv a lot of pics..some she took, some i took..but mostly, we took them together..lols..man, i took so long to upload the pics..and my connection today not that good..

careless?

2008-11-11T16:55:00.002+08:00

i am one careless girl..today, when we got our sivik paper i counted my marks just to be sure...BUT i just count the number which the teacher wrote at the bottom of the question..the teacher's 6 looks like a 4..so , i counted it as a 4.. when i got home, my mum asked me if i checked my papers right..i was like yeah..

i took out my bm and sivik paper..to start counting again..then, i realised.. the teacher's 4 is actually a 6...a bloody hell 6.. how am i suppose to tell the teacher? and i think i'm so gonna be dead.. my class teacher adi got all the results..and i think she adi print..how?? hopefully, my marks can be changed.. it's suppose to be 45 not 41..haizz..

got to be more..careful?

HAIR,HAIR,HAIR

2008-11-10T16:17:00.001+08:00

in need of help..i've always wanted to cut my hair..[ask vivien if you don't believe] but mum thinks i shouldn't..after look like mop / broom , don't cry in front of me..that's what she says..so now, i'm thinking..which hairstyle and fringe..HELP me guys!!

Depressed?

2008-11-10T14:54:00.003+08:00

crap..crap..crap..if i could, i would definitely add the 'F word'.."Heizen, you failed..you pretty much fail whatever you had wanted..you can't get what you wanted..so go ahead cry all you want.." what did you think? that i really meant to put F**K? i might you the world hell, and bloody hell and shit but i don't use the f-word..

so, you guys might notice today in school that i wasn't really smiling..a lot..not like usual..today, was more..Sad..i guess..

Do i look like this today?i really want to know..i played the games..but to tell you the truth, i didn't really have much fun..there was little excitement in me...but it was nice to spend some time with friends..

i am not happy with my marks at all.. i actually thought to myself,"Screw me..screw my life..i just..argh..i can't believe it..doing my best doesn't mean it works like that.*snap finger*..crap la, how am i suppose to answer to others? they'll be like,"how much?why?what?bla blabie bla" i have to fake a smile? is that it? tell them, "oh, it's nothing..i'm sure i've tried my best and crap crap crap?"and, what ? it'll go away?

the other day someone asked me how do i handle big/major stress..i lied..i can't believe i lied..it just slipped out of my mouth..and i knew why..coz, there was someone else there..i said,"i dun really hv that type of stress..so.."

haizz..results aren't really 'attracting'.. or nice.. sometimes, i hate being in this class..too much pressure..too much smart ppl..too much competition..TOO MUCH..haizz..just too much of everything..

can't wait till the holidays..teacher said we'll hv earlier hols..can't wait to just sit back and relax..

:'(

2008-11-08T17:46:00.002+08:00

I don't think I'm going to watch HSM 3 in cinemas..Coz :

*No one's going with me..maybe elena only
*Others are either away/busy/can't make it/not interested/watch adi
*My family aren't interested except my bro, but his exams are next week.

and anyway, i think the show's gonna be over soon..and i can't possibly go on weekdays..got school..haizz..

anyway, i mentioned that there are albums coming out soon , right? here are some:

*David Archuleta
*David Cook
*Taylor Swift
*Beyonce
*Hilary Duff
*Leona Lewis

and, i will be downloading david cook's & taylor swift's..i've already downloaded david archuleta's!! haha..not his biggest fan but i am of taylor's..hehe..so still waiting..couple of days more till taylor's.. archie's album ain't that bad, some of the songs are nice..

nothing else to blog about..bye then

I'm Flying without Wings!!!!!

2008-11-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

exams are over..and i'm FREE!!!!!! yay!!! a bit exaggerated over the title..

well, we got some of the exam results back and i'm happy for 2 of the paper, satisfied with one, and could-have-done-better with the other one..and well, now, i'm afraid of MATHS..i panicked. i couldn't think and whatever i practise the day before, it was all gone.. i am so gonna fail that paper..BIG time..argh, i felt like crying after maths paper 2. paper 1 was easier.a lot more easier..hehe..well, GOD, if you're reading my mind, pls help me with this!!!! maths ah..die la..

I'm looking-forward to this month cos:

*Lots of picture taking / camwhoring with friends..
*albums are coming out
*HSM 3, yeah, i haven't watch it yet..soon, i hope
*Class party...FOOD..Mmmm..
*Holidays
*No tuition..WOOHOO!!!
*Tour DVD coming out
*visiting friends/sleepover..
*Shopping!!

today, i bought 2 necklaces with the peace sign on it!! yay!! i love it..haha..i actually wanted to buy more BUT what the heck, i'll get 2 first. RM 10 for 2 so..yeah..

School again..

2008-10-20T16:50:00.002+08:00

back to school again..after 2 days of holiday and a saturday off, we're back to school again..i hate school..yes, i'm lazy..am definitely a lazy bum..yay!!

anyway, there was tragic news on last thurs. A Form 4 Indian student from my school wanted to commit suicide but fail.She drank the detergent or something. She wants to kill herself just because of some so call friendship problems, but there were some who said she's a lesbian..and when the teacher called the ambulance, the girl kept on saying the other girl's name..

my god, can't she think? she's 16 year old.She should be able to differentciate what's wrong and what's right. She's going to kill herself just because of that? she's throwing her whole life away..i hope she's fine and well, sane..

next, we saw MISS AIMI in the NEWSPAPER. what newspaper? UTUSAN MALAYSIA,15 October 2008, MEGA..so if you want to see how miss aimi looks like go search for the paper!!! the girl who's modelling is MISS AIMI!!! and the title's is Berani bergaya walau berisi . i don't think she's fat though.. she looks pretty and she wasn't wearing her specs in the pics. Doesn't really look like her. i've found a pic:

Presenting MISS AIMI!!!!

this was the only pic i found from utusan malaysia online..but seriously, look at other pics! she looks great!

BIRTHDAYS!!

2008-10-16T15:05:00.005+08:00

oook...so first up is..

ROXANNE!!!
-Happy belated b'day and hope u like the sms i sent to you the other day!
You've been a great friend all these years..how can i ever repay you? well, you're just really great to be with and great to talk to in the middle of the night..well, not in the middle of the night, but with all those sms-es and a phone call was, well, nice of you..anyway, wishing you the best in life and know that i will always miss you. Love you!

MICHELLE!!!
-Happy birthday, girl! You're 14!! ah..stop thanking me on your b'day gift! and i'm really glad you like it! and i know you're a fan of westlife and thank god, i won't have to be alone..haha!! thanks for always being there for me in school!! i didn't have to feel lonely coz i have you! and dhuha and everyone else of course, but well, just know that when you aren't around, life in school is really BORING!!!

and here's the pic of your guy:

Sorry..you've got the skandar keynes pic adi but you don't have Shane's, so here it is..and also not forgetting them, coz i didn't give you their poster:

click pic to enlarge..i'm kinda taiping this in a hurry so sorry if i miss out anyhthing.,em, shane's hair looks kinda weird.. gotta go bye

Another pressie!!

2008-10-09T17:54:00.009+08:00

hello..i've got another b'day pressie!

From Bern Bern..hehe..and...

it's a pair of cow! 2 cute cows..

Michelle wanted to see my pigs..So here it is:

The pigs were from Yan ling. They were given to me when i was in primary school, the only gift i received from her in primary school..haha..

Roxy? remember this or not? i took the pic like you asked me to..see, i still have the box..

well anyway, tuesday was really funny..i got to mess around a lot..teacher hardly in class, and lets say i did something..cute,i think or funny in the comp lab..em, yesterday, we didn't study coz they had this majlis thing-y and i wasn't interested in those boring-ol ceremonies..

ohh..i heard dhuha's mum, PN. SABARIATI scolding the late comers..and she pin up khim khim's hair..holly.. let's just say this girl has this attitude, that not many ppl like..anyway, dhuha's mum just got transfered, so we were kinda teasing her and all..not to mention, her mum has a high ranking..THE PK-1 of this school!!!

today's okay..school, i mean..em, i just did something and it isn't nice..at all...i mean, the 'hasil' is not nice..hell la..i hope she likes it..HOPE..ah..it doesn't look nice at all!! should have not listen to my mum..should put black&white instead of colours...haiyo..

this morning, when i was tying my hair in the room and the radio was on, i heard the deejay said,"Happy Birthday to Nicky of Westlife.Since it's his birthday today, we've decided to make this whole entire hour as Boyband Hour so send in your requests! First up...." hmm..whole hour? anyway michelle, i will be posting up the vid later so you can just watch it here..i like Markie the most!! LOLS..it's mark but sometimes the other guys call him markie for fun..

Nicky:

Kian, Mark , Nicky and Shane
Nicky, Mark,Kian and Shane..

Happy 30th B'day,Nicky! click on the the last pic and 1st pic of Nicky to enlarge..so Michelle, which one?

More Pressies!!

2008-10-06T18:56:00.006+08:00

Pressies:

4 October:
From Juee and Yan Ling:Just Between Us by Cathy Kelly[no idea who she is]

Today:
From Michelle
Blue one's from Elaine, Yellow one's from Yuen San and White Black one's from Jenny

Elaine's gift..she told me what it was for last week, but i think i'll keep it till next year..hope you don't mind elaine..
Yuen San's..it's pretty cute..look at the bear!

Jenny's gift was in the box..Look at the box..it's cute:

The lid.. :P
This is Jenny's gift..a glass..

Michelle's:
She got my a bottle..after she broke my bottle cap..i told her to just forget about it but..she bought another one for me.. -ForgiveNForget--LoveNPeace- There's more in the bottle..and..it has a bookmark
her wishes behind her bookmark, with stickers..
another necklace!!! also from zing.. like roxy's..haha..

i'm gonna make sure to get a dress or a top that goes with these necklaces..thanks guys!

Ola from school...

2008-10-06T13:27:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone..i'm currently blogging in school now...

today's been pretty boring...we[the 6 of us-Jenny,Kang wei, kuljeet,megan,natasha and i] din't study at all...the only thing we studied today is bm..the other 7 periods were just plain boredddd..

you know why? coz they had the raptai for the ko-ku awards thing for the ppl who get A's and B's..i don't even know what grade i got..haha..

i'm not good in sports..i don't even know what i'm good at..i would really like to play sports, like tennis or whatever..i can't play those ball games..Once my primary school teacher told me that i could take up tennis or bowling..hands long enough,and i'm light..haha..bowling? not my thing, i don't even think i could lift those things..skinny..but i'm 41 kg now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 who's thin now? am trying to put on more weight...

anyway, back to the story..we were just bored.. during geog period,which was after recess,we went to the comp lab but no internet..stupid..so we just listen to some songs, then recess!! i was hungry that time..after recess, was maths..mr.goh didn't teach and left the class after 5 mins sitting there..then, it was sivik, didn't do anything...teacher said exam's on 29th but cik salma told us that it was on 22nd..hell la.. can't they just tell us the right info?

after sivik teacher left, we played hang man..i manage to guess the words right..haha..i got 4 presents today..will post them up later..

jenny's beside me now...she's asking me why the hell am i taiping in school...lols..she's laughing now..bored... staring at the comp screen..oh..her hair is tied up now..she's sighing and giggling..em, i'm giggling not her.. she's like"....."-speechless-

nothing else to taip about,,so ..bye bye!! haha..i'm mad and "weird"-quoted by jenny..she's still here..XP

Believe in Me

2008-10-02T16:50:00.006+08:00

Believe in Me by Demi Lovato

I'm losing myself
Trying to compete
with everyone else
Instead of just being me
I Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful
today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, I just wanna believe in me
La la la la
La la la la

The mirror can lie
It doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you you're full of lies
It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see, I just wanna believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down, not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

Not gonna be afraid
I'm gonna wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
You see now, now I believe in me
Now I believe in me.

My B'day

2008-09-29T18:12:00.003+08:00

Pictures were grabbed from roxy's blog:

First stop, KFC..i was hungry as i haven't eaten lunch..so we went there..
Cheezy wedges!!!

We walked around abit, bought something for paveena..then headed home..

we camwhored..
the 3 of us
it looks as though i want to get off my seat...
i look so blurrrr....i was spinning round the chair..hahaha
Me and roxy

Roxy and Rose
Me and Rose
Leaning tower?

This was really last minute..at first, roxy was just going to come here and give me my present..then, she asked rose to tag along too..it was suppose to be a surprise but rose couldn't give her the answer so..she told me the truth..hahah..

on Sunday, my mum asked me if they wanted to go to Jusco..i was like, what? i dunno, kinda last minute.. then she told me to ask them, so i did..and didn't get the answer till tuition was almost over..

it was really funny when we took the pics..i was laughing and laughing and laughing when me and roxy were camwhoring..hahaha, sorry didn't mean to..

Mental note to self:

*Practise how to smile with braces on,[not too much, not too little....]
*Don't be too unpredictable..
*Don't take things too seriously..
*Smile,smile,smile..smile nicely..not too wide, not too small..

the other thing was, it's your b'day and yet you cried..not tears of laughter but sadness..dont do that the next time.. and thanks to 3 ppl out there for hearing me out..and 1 of them for comforting me when i cried.. and thanks for picking up the phone and calling me back.. don't worry, i won't go kill myself, i'm not that stupid..and no, there isn't a knife under my bed..

Smile..smile..smile

:)

Presents..

2008-09-29T11:31:00.005+08:00

i've got a few presents in 2 days..so i'll show them to you, ok?

This was given to me on the 27th :

Famous Amos box
ooh...cookies
and something wrapped with a sticker on top..
ah...Thanks for the memories!!! yay!! i don't need to buy this book...Both were given to me by cousin sis, Esther..

28th:

Roxy made me this.. cute right? there's stars and she wrote wishes on the flag-thing

and she gave me this.. the plastic bag reminds of her pen and something else she bought..black nail polish is it?
last time, she gave me a star necklace too..haha..now i hv another one from her..
Rose gave me this
Another necklace!

Thankies for the gifts guys.. more pics to come..i'm kinda busy now and i would like to post about lots of things...maybe later..and thanks to those who wished me happy birthday..

Oh man..

2008-09-26T15:27:00.006+08:00

So many things happened today..i guess we'll start with the beginning shall we?

MORNING
Got a present from dhuha then elena..i opened them up after i asked them.. Here's what they got me:

Dhuha's gift to me..

Elena gave this

Her card..oo..i love you too!

Dhuha gave me this chain..there was 2 chain in there..she said one is for the boy and the other is for the girl..so give one to your boyfriend.. i was like, what? i'm still single, k? yan ling held out her hand..and i pushed it away..she then took one of the chain and tried to wear it for me on my wrist.. i hit her hand..haha..it was kinda funny..

One's a lock and the other is a key..

Next, Elena's gift..she got me a 'H'-Heizen..
and this a photo frame..
Lols..my bro...

Some of them wished me a happy advanced b'day..which was really nice of them..thanks guys for the presents and wishes..and thanks for those who told me that there were gifts awaiting for me after the hols.

Later, i had to take the lisan exam..i was kinda nervous and chose the 'Ramai Remaja Rosak' thing..some of you knew the story adi, on what the teacher ask me so..skip that part..

after i was done with the lisan, i took the black book to write my wishes to ms.aimi as it was her last day today..i flipped to the page where i paste my baby pic there..and it was covered with glitter... the page had glitter over it..purple glitter.. and there some on my pic.. i , personally, hate glitter..hate it..i was kinda mad coz she didn't even apologize to me.. she made that page with purple glitter over it.. she could just say sorry, i didn't mean to..the thing wasn't dry or something.. i shouted her name and she came..and asked me why did u call me? i was like, you see.. There's glitter there...

there were some friends around me..and the bell rang..recess time..i got up and said, move..move-la, i want to eat..i stormed out of the class room.. i really dunno why i got angry at Hui Min..rarely have i scold ppl since secondary school.. yan ling, was like, don't'la so angry..and i said, i'm not angry..she kept quite for awhile.. i actually was angry.. hell-la..don't be so angry..chill..

RECESS
heading to the canteen, i saw her sitting there at study corner..elaine,suke mune and xinyi was at our usual place..i sat down and asked them why was she sitting there..she normally eats/talk with us..but today, she just sat there doing her work.. she didn't even eat.. i told yan ling that i didn't talk to her since yesterday.. she was like, so?

i ate my bread then, did a lot of thinking... after i was done, i walked to her and asked her,"you sure, you aren't eating? you want this[biscuits]? after you faint how?"she said no..then me and yan ling walked back to class..

AFTER RECESS
Went to the library coz it was BC/BT..talked to jenny and yan ling the most..talked about lots of things;phones,ipods,apple,food,wishes and loads more.. haha..ooh.. talked to jia bao too.. kidding about her being an aunty..lols.. She on the other hand, has no mood.. just read newspaper only and left earlier than all of us..

BACK TO CLASS
when i went back to class, elaine looked so worried when i came in..she was like heizen, yan ling looked at her.."huh?"i said "er.." then she dragged me to the side.. "just now, ........."[secret] "hah?! omg!!" i was shocked and scared at the same time..but thank god, it didn't involved me..
hui min said sorry to me..i wasn't even that mad anymore..so apology accepted..and i told her i wasn't really mad at her..

FREE PERIOD
we told mr.goh not to teach today, and anyway the class was kinda empty, because everyone went out.. later miss aimi came in..

DON'T LEAVE
kinda sad that ms. aimi's leaving..she won't be here anymore..we got her a teddy bear and the book full of wishes and pics of us.. my eye was wet.. but i didn't cry.. you know -even as tears filled my eyes,i swear i won't cry- that type of thing..we sang the BARNEY song,

'i love you, you love me,
we are happy family,
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you,
won't you say you love me too?"

i couldn't sing. i really felt like crying.. so i kept quiet..man, i'm going to miss her..

AFTERNOON
at 12, we went down to the hall..we were required to salam to all the teachers..i hugged miss aimi..and got a air kiss from cik salma..haha..

see? so many things can happen in a day.. ooh..before i forget..

THANKS Elaine for hearing me out and getting me that book eventhough i've already got one[shouldn't have told me..haha],
THANKS Suke Mune for hearing me out,
THANKS Michelle for keeping me company most of the time,
THANKS Dhuha for what you said today, it made me feel kinda happy that the person sitting beside me isn't somebody else..and i like you too in the same way you put it today, ok?
THANKS Yuen San for caring about me and being a good friend,
THANKS Bernice for hearing some of my past,
THANKS Kok Xin Yi[not goh] for belaja-ing me the other day,
THANKS to everyone else who have been really nice to me,cared for me, laughed with me, cried with me, shared everything else, the emotions, problems and loads more with me..

Last but not least, THANKS to 4 wonderful girls who are also my very good and close friends that had been there for me since primary school, Yan Ling,Elena, Ju Ee,and Vivien..thank you..we've argued,cried, smiled, laughed, and shared lots of other emotions..

THANK YOU's to Roseanna and Roxanne who had been my best friends since primary school..michelle think we're sister or something in a pic..haha..thank you, for listening to me complain about things, hung-out with me,sharing things with me, tears and laughter were there in the years i've known you guys..

THANK YOU guys.. You'll always be a part in my life.. you've just been great friends..know that we'll be remembering each other and appreciating each other..

...

2008-09-25T19:15:00.004+08:00

i just don't get it, ok?
what's wrong with all of these?
who's in the wrong here?
why does it have to be like this?
we were all getting along just fine..now?
who's fault is it?
no one's?
i believe, it's no one's fault but who am i kidding?
it comes and goes just like that..
how long will it last?
forever?
will that be possible?
or might it be shorter than that?
a year? 1/2 a year? months? a week?
who knows?
tolerating it's important but can we do that?
i am and have been since the big blow..
all of us have..
the question is can you?

Heizen

Happy Birthday!!

2008-09-17T17:50:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to my one and only......

MAMA CHICKEN!!!! the b'day mum:

Paveena
Paveena and me..yes, it's the same pic..
Santhini and Paveena
Thylaga and Paveena

These are the only pictures i could find..i have a few other but they were 2006's ones..so i think these are nicer!!

anyway, wish you the best in life..
smile always (more attractive)
em..don't stop being yourself..and don't ever forget me, mama!!
i dun think u can remember i'm chicken little number 3!!! hopefully you do.. XP
thanks for being a nice friend throughout the years i've known you..

HAPPY B'DAY and thanks for getting me a gift!!!!

Old video of Yan Ling

2008-09-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

Hey guys! i just uploaded the video of yan ling opening her present..since there were requests from friends..yan ling is so gonna chop me tomorrow...haha...